A Tide That Goes On Forever

I remember
Past times

Promises of warmth
Your signal fades
Behind the horizon

I still do bathe
Under your radiate gaze
But over the times
This too is shadow

Lost without a proper cause
I do test the waters
And share my love pains
With those thought beneath us
Guilt begins to well inside

My world is only shadow now
And I will never forgive you
You leave me to this design
Resigned to have me hang dry
No love felt in this cold
I curse your name in vain

This horrid facade I keep
It shows only my disgrace
Through reflections of the waters
How this image comes through
Is beyond my frail understanding

And yet you come
Despite what I think
Or what I say
A kindle for flames

From beyond horizons
The signal ignites
Remembering warm promises

You forgive
I remember

Heart Machine

Do I let go?
Do I move on?

Reflecting back on times we've had
The smiles, the songs and laughs
And pictures to mark a time forever
But what now? Do I just let it go?

The pain I brought forth
When the heart and mind revolted
Saying to me
The lesson must be learned
I knew what it was
Finding this 'Happiness within'

I saw what she became
My crutch

In fear and desperation, I clung harder
Pushing her away
I see now
This pain stems within
To love to be loved
Is a machine built to ruin
An expectation that chooses for you
Or one you choose for the other

And the voice told me
After you burn your bridges
If you want your friend
You're going to have to fight

Holding on from yesterdays words
Circumstance holds nothing back
I love because I choose to love
This pain makes me strong
Even without return
I am free because I love freely

Train of Thought

Looking for a reason
Searching for a purpose
Finding out the answer
But left hollow and unsatisfied

Rejecting the outcome, the research continues
Only to find that the data remains the same
How can this be? This tragedy?
Who is it we must blame?

Caught in this circle where truth is denied
The search for purpose becomes its reason
The reason for existence becomes its purpose
Endless beginnings and countless endings
Can this be rectified?
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Its existence now tied to its cycles
A set balance to hold control
Never questioning the olden purpose
It simply feeds to remain whole
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Lay bare your thoughts
They stem from illusion
Mental traps, blocks designed
To stray from conclusion

And when you awake
From the dream sequence
Perspective is the final key
To creating our new existence

Be You to Be

Moonshine Drunk

This vision never dies
I'm goin' on my way
Sittin' on my side
The Lord told me to stay

He told me "You'll take them walls down
In three hundred ninety days"
He says "Eat the bread of lentils
And go on, on your way"

If you askin' me why
Is this world wastin' away
Ill tell ya, you know the sadness of the mad man
Is of a man who's lost his day

And now the light of the moon
Is reflectin' on his pain
And he'll never know why
He can't seem to find his way

The Violets

Deep in the heart of the child


Lifetimes of preparation
Unfold memories of old
And from the new
Catharsis springs


Walk your own path
You will walk with me
I march towards the skies
Where violet love sings


You are not alone
I walk with you
You were always home
Always remember


You've just forgotten me

Eternal Sleep

Part I: Despondence Creeps

There's no voice in your head
No conscious to heed
Go back to sleep
There now, isn't it cozy in bed?

This comfort is all you really need...
Don't go outside! Its Dangerous!
The cold winter eats the skin
Stay here! Just consume, eat, feed...

My oh my, isn't it nice to be here?
With nothing to hurt you?
This place inside, these walls
Everything is just as it appears...

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Part II: The Mind-The Master

Internally programmed to be
Simply to be
Just a reflex or a twitch
Nothing more to this switch
An existence without cause
But when I give one pause
I come to realize
These thoughts not my own
Or maybe they are?
Or maybe they're not?
Or is it in my head?
What is my head?
This brain?
Endless string of collective reaction?
What am I?
What is anything?
Why?

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Part III: Wild to Nothing

FUCK THIS PLACE!
AND THESE WALLS!
AND MY FEARS!
AND THIS WINTER!
AND MY MOTHER!
AND MY FATHER!
AND EVERYTHING THAT IS PAST!
AND EVERYTHING THAT IS PRESENT!
AND THIS FUTURE YOU MADE!
DOWN THIS DRAIN!
AND THIS LIFE!
THIS LIFE AS POINTLESS AS THE NEXT!
DEATH THE ONLY FREEDOM?!
ILL TEAR EVERYTHING DOWN
RIP THIS SKIN OFF
THIS EARTH WILL BURN
WITHOUT A RHYME OR REASON!

...

But why am I still here?
What have I done?
There is nothing and yet here I am?
This place is cold...
I miss them now...
And who are you?!

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Part IV: Nothing to Something

Child, I simply am
As you are as I

But then why live? And why die?
Why do anything? Why try?

Why love and why cry? Why fail after you try?
Why fear or break free?
Is this what you ask me?
Why? Because its good to be alive.
Do you remember taste?
And you remember feel?
Even in illusion, its all real!
All that is lost and all that is gained
Those feelings you felt... Feel unrestrained!
Your mind and actions are nothing at all!
Not without the heart to keep them on call!
Never fear what will come, the past is a ghost!
The time has come to go back to your host...


But what is the point?

To what point do you ask?

...

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Part V: Sovereign in Balance

This wisdom came in a dream
And now the fault is known
But this passion burns the seams
Through it all growth is shown

There's work to be done
And a message to spread
Save the 'right now'
For its the only one we get

Some aim for balance and some for grace
Some fight the wave, some love the race
There is no right and there is no wrong
If you are the one who made the choice all along

Be a unified creature, there's no time for inner conflict

Hero (In) Side

I Am Freedom
Controller of the Soul
This chaotic key for
The door to 'know'

Brought on forth
And desired by all
This fire within 'I'
Will burn You whole

Step forward and watch it fall
The idea You play around
Do you step at all?
Terror strikes when I sound

Ignorant to shadows
Created by My light
They claw and gnaw
Your Name is their plight

Maybe You are better off
Cower in Your corner
Fester in the cold place
Just so you don't see

But remember this
When you increase your fall
There are no shadows
When inside the fire you call

I Am Your Enemy
In this place within, I Wait
I Am Your Army
When You wield the key to Your fate